It's not enough anymore.
I really really want to live and not have to think about making doodies - just do it!
What would life be like without a fussy tummy? I really have no clue, but I can imagine!
Today is a day of frustration. I awoke early (a little before 5), even though it's Saturday and I am allowed to sleep in. I picked up Mike at the airport last night - glad to have him home. He is sleeping nicely.
So why the frustration. Life. Awareness. Personal shortcomings. I realize I am more a generalist than a specialist, and while I know a lot of stuff, that's just the point. I know a lot of stuff. What do I do with that? How do I ask the important questions, and who decides if the questions are important or not?
Ah. Introspection is a wonderfully frustrating exercise.
Now, if it were someone else saying this stuff, I would be helpful and probing, and say that, first, asking questions is good. All questions are important. And second, knowing a lot of stuff gives one a more balanced perspective than only knowing a narrow slice. And balance is key.
OK. So I helped myself here. What has all this got to do with making doodies?
Inner stress, that's what.
Think about it. We stress ourselves for any number of things, on top of letting life's stuff affect us and stress us. And while I truly believe that the medical community will eventually find clinical causes for IBS, I also truly believe we are each powerful enough to create our lives, including our physical character. That stress, both in & external, affects IBSers' intestinal balance. Thus the doodie factor.
BTW, I am makin' doodies every morning, and 95% of the time I do not need more assist than a half glass of water and standing up or walking around for a few minutes.
Is that progress or what? A year ago I was still in a fairly intense routine that included hot lemon tea, lots of water, aloe juice, lots of time.
I am makin' progress toward my goal. Someday I will be able to live without thinking about making doodies. Maybe soon.
Now I need to get the rest of my life together. [sigh]
Later.
posted by LST
8/25/2001 05:54:25 AM