Perfect Health. I have it you know.
Here's how it works: you think, therefore you are. Remember that? It's true. The power of thought is incredible. If we THINK we are ill, then we are ill. If we think we can recover, we will recover. If we think we are well, we are well.
You hear about the numerous 'miracles' of people living through cancer and other serious dis-eases, and the exclamation is always the same context - that the person overcame the illness through sheer WILLPOWER. (and what is willpower but positive thinking...)
All thoughts are powerful. Positive thoughts and negative thoughts are powerful. Most of us think in negative most of the time. It takes conscious effort to think in positive. It takes conscious effort, and desire, to change one's orientation from illness to wellness.
Why is that?
As my old NYC friend Louise used to say, illness serves as one crutch we rely on to not do what we don't want to do. Usually that is to live life more fully. Illness is an excuse to not go out and enjoy life.
Louise would ask that pertinent question "How does this serve you?", whenever anyone would complain about this or that problem.
That is a good place to start: ask yourself, or better yet, have someone you know and trust ask you, "How does this [insert problem here] serve you?". Then answer it. Or try to. You might surprise yourself. I did.
Oh, and this isn't something you do once. It is an exercize you do at different periods, usually when you reach a point where you are no longer making progress.
So, after my month of being stuck (December 2001, the month of the enema bag), I knew I had to address some issues. I was ready. Along came this seminar, taught by one of my favorite profs, and addressing inner growth. Perfect!
I have learned and grown so much in the last few weeks I am going to burst. One of the most important lessons was that of the positive/negative thought ratio, and to be conscious of our thoughts, including random thought, b/c it all affects us all of the time. The other really important lesson was that we live most of the time either in the future or the past, but very little in the present. This is important.
Here is an example: I have been saying for a while now that I am on this path toward perfect health. Well, if I am always on the path and perfect health is a future goal, will I ever achieve it? Probably not, b/c it will always be in the future and in the present I will always have to cope with my illness. When I realized this, I began to tell myself that I am in perfect health NOW. I HAVE PERFECT HEALTH.
So far, the outcome has been really nice. I tell myself what perfect health means to me. It means no more IBS. It means no more aches and pains, or cramps, or gas, or constipation. It means I can make doodies when I need to, a few times a day, after meals.
Guess what? That is how I have been living for the past two weeks (as long as I have that positive thought of being in perfect health). Guess what else? I am going to apply this to everything in my life.
An important area for me is writing. So, now I tell myself that I AM A WRITER. I have been doing this for about a week now. The results are somewhat disconcerting - writing is becoming less painful for me. I have decided to live in the present and be who I am, rather than living in past or future, and coping with old baggage or fearing far off goals.
TTYL
posted by LST
2/2/2002 07:11:55 AM