AHA!

I am the health mystery detective.

And I am getting better at discovering the TRUTH.

Here's the thing. Saturday we went out to eat at a Mexican restaurant. Yeah, I know, that is not cool dietwise b/c of all the starch and sugar in the food. Lately, though, I have been able to consume small quantities of the 'bad' stuff on occasion and live to eat another day...

Sunday we took my grandmother out for her 89th birthday. Went to a favorite Asian restaurant (Seri Malaka), and I had leftovers for Monday lunch. I love Malasian food and Thai food, too. Problem is, they almost always use sugar in their sauces along with the spice and seasonings.

Oh, and my brother is still with us, and went both times, of course. He actually bought Saturday's dinner. I am stressed by him staying with us, although by now I am getting used to him. He is a big guy, and has a loud voice (something I had forgotten about over the last 30 years of not living with him), and wants to share everything about his day, and he also is a bit self-centered (a Leo), albeit warm and generous at the same time. So, the stage is set.

Now guess what happened?

The big "C". Tuesday and Wednesday were really tough. Thursday wasn't much better. Enema days. Bubbly tummy. Food intake was vastly minimized b/c anything going in upset me. Yikes!

Yesterday I lay low foodwise - drank fruit juices and water. Ate applesauce. That's it folks.

Today I am back to regularity.
Yeah!

The combo of two days of starch and sugars, my brother, and taking my grandmother to the doctor this week, on top of my growing realization that my family moving here is not so OK with me, pushed my system over the top. It crashed!

I am ambivalent about having my family close enough to stop in, or get together more frequently, or make neighborly demands on me. On the one hand, it is really nice we are all getting along so well. But, as a friend pointed out the other day, we are getting along at a distance. I know the dynamics always change, but there will be a big change when everyone is close by.

Time to move? No. I won't be scared away. I just need to face my fears, come to grips, and accept that the town is big enough for all of us.

Whew!

Who'da thunk.

I am still excited they are coming. Now I know, thanks to my tummy, how much they affect me! And I thought it was just my mother... HA!

TTYL
Posted 7/12/2002 09:52:06 AM by l tanzer

The Chi Nei Tsang, in combination with the chinese herbs and probiotics, is doing well by me. There is a book by Gilles Marin on Chi Nei Tsang. I highly recommend it. More, I recommend finding a practitioner from whom to receive instruction.

During ovulation I was blocked for a day - used the old enema as relief. After that I have been doing well - not as well as I had been, but I have also been under some more stresses.

Overall I must say I am doing well. If I were to describe my present state of health, I would say that it is more BALANCED than ever before. In the process of living in a more balanced state, I also learn more about my own psyche, and how that intersects with physiology to create a particular health.

I like to share, and I like to help others to gain balance for themselves. That is not always a healthy place for me b/c I will extend myself for others, forgetting that they usually tend to take more than give, and that most people are more self concerned than other concerned. Result is diminished health for me (for a particular duration, whatever that might end up), and some intangible gains for the other person.

Then I realize, and do so through my tummy. Really, it is my tummy that tells me ENOUGH. In the last month or three this has occurred more frequently than in the past. Much has to do with increasing interface with my family, all of whom are moving hereabouts.

So, I must be stalwart and maintain my personal boundaries where my family is concerned. It is so much easier when they are hundreds and thousands of miles away!

More later.
Posted 7/10/2002 12:09:09 PM by l tanzer